When you could do one thing to better your future, I’d consciously recommend that something you’re passionate about will be found and done for a lifetime. Right now, this isn’t as easy as it sounds. It is definitely warranted, though, irrespective of the hardship.
Whether you’re scared to go out to your activity or end up chronically lacking in terms of creativity, or figure out what you’re doing, you have to start searching for a new place.